*sigh*

So I haven't posted in a few days because I ran out of my anti- depressant/anxiety medication....the first day was not bad, the second and third day I was having some serious withdraw issues....and it sucked....But with the help of Jen, my sister, Dan, and my mothers paxil....I managed to make to today so I could go to the drs. and get more nice meds. Dan was freakin' wonderful through out it all....my mood was everywhere, and one minute I'd be fine the next I would feel dizzy and have what I can best describe as waves of tingles (like the kind you get when you hyper venalate)...but today is much better! I am not sure I would have gotten through those two days without a hospital visit if it hadnt been for Dan. I am not sure what I did to deserve someone as wonderful as he is but I am so glad he is in my life! I love him so much!

100 Posts!!!!!!

WoW! That is alot! Anyway, todays blog will be a combination of Music Monday and Tickle Tuesday!

I love Me first and the Gimme Gimmes! Here are a few of my favorite videos!

If you need a Friend!


Sweet Caroline!


Up Town Girl


Ill Be There


The Longest Time


Only the Good Die Young


Country Roads


The Phantom of the Opera (Me First and the Gimme Gimmes)


Somewhere over the rainbow


Dont Cry for me Argentina

Who Put the Bomp

My Boyfriends Back


Yesterday was 3 months for Dan and I! :-D

Hello blogging world.....

This week started Vacation Bible School! I am in a fourth and fifth grade class! So far it is fun! Unfortunately, I have a staph infection on my left arm....I believe that I have gotten most of the puss out over the weekend, and as of today started antibiotics. Therefore, I have been grumpy and tired the last 4 or 5 days. Once again, Dan has caught the brunt of my mood swings (pms does not help either), he just takes it in stride though and gives me a hug, and asks what he can do to make me feel better or to help. I think I have healed faster because of Dan, when I am not feeling well and Im achy I like being held...it makes me feel better...and I think it took a whole lot longer for puss to come out of my face than it did my arm....and I believe that Dan holding me and cuddling me has made the difference. I do not see how I deserve him....most of the time I feel like I am a very rotten girlfriend....I feel like he could do so much better than me. My moods bounce around like a super ball at times (some or most of that is due to my depression, and either needing to be on another medication or my dosage is not right...something isnt working though), I have problems with communicating verbally with how I feel, what I want, or like; I have trouble with self motivating (another problem thanks to depression), etc. With my mood, in certian situations I can put on a smile and act like everything is alright, but when its just Dan and I, I let him see whats really going on, which I guess shows that I trust him, but at the same time Im afraid that if Im grumpy, tired, and miserable alot he's going to leave me because even if I tell him its not him (which 99.999999999999999999999999999999999999-999% it is not him he makes me extremely happy!), he is going to think it is him anyway. I know he says he wont ever leave and I believe that he means it now, but Ive heard that before...and I believed it before...so I dunno....Im going to swtich clothes to the drier and head off to bed! Good night!

Wordless Wednesday: Texas Style

Decided that since I haven't taken many pictures lately Ill update with Pics from my trip to Texas....here's another favorite!

An actual street name on base:

took the picture just for my Dan!

The most awesomest friend and I!

Emma not sleeping!

Tickle Tuesday

These made me smile and hopefully make you smile too!

It is official!

- - - - - Degrees Awarded - - - - -

Degree : Bachelor of Science

Confer Date : 2009-05-20

Degree GPA : 3.210

Plan : Elementary Education

THIS STUDENT HAS COMPLETED A MARYLAND APPROVED CERTIFICATION PROGRAM,

USING RECOGNIZED STATE OR NATIONAL STANDARDS, WITH ELIGIBILITY FOR

CERTIFICATION IN ELEMENTARY EDUCATION, AND HAS COMPLETED STUDENT

TEACHING IN GRADE 2. THE PROGRAM INCLUDES THE MARYLAND APPROVED

READING COURSES. THE UNIT IS ACCREDITED BY THE NATIONAL COUNCIL FOR

THE ACCREDITATION OF TEACHER EDUCATION.

Im so excited and glad! YAY!

Friday Flicks....

I love..... He's Just Not That Into You .... granted its not as good as the book....but it is still pretty awesome!

Im not a College Student anymore....

So I need a new blog title! Please send me your suggestions! I figure eventually Ill have something in my title about being a teacher but not yet since I havent even begun to apply yet because I dont know when my diploma will be arriving! Thanks for the help!

Thursday Thoughts....

I finally heard back from the head of the ELED department about my grade being changed. I have been waiting for well over a week for it to show on my online transcripts and it has yet to do so. Evidently it takes several days to several weeks for it to show up on the online transcripts....which I think is crap but whatever....Dan thinks I should go above her, to find out what really is going on...but I don't know....he's actually more aggravated and frustrated by all of this than I am. Some of that may be because of my medication evening me out and causing me not to lose my patience as easily as I once had.

In other news, my baby fever was short lived, the day after writing that blog I had my usual two kids for infant care. Both of them cried or fussed the whole time....and that was the end of that.

Ok Im gonna go now....cya.

Wordless Wednesday

I just realized I never posted pics from my trip to Texas....way back in March...so here is one of my faves!

Evidently shopping wore Emma out :-)

Tickle Tuesday

My Cousins son Dylan is becoming quite a character as he nears his first birthday here are some videos of him playing Peek-A-Boo with my grandmother...






I love his laugh! Have a great day ya'll!

Music Monday

Bella's Lullaby from Twilight!

*sigh*

Last night Dan and I went and visited my friends Rob and Mila and my godson Joey. I got to feed him and put him to sleep...and as I was holding him, he snuggled closer to me and it was so precious....and it caused me to get baby fever....(please do not freak out Dan)...I know right now Im not ready to be a mom....but I want to be a mom so badly....I hold Joey and I want to cry...he's growing so fast! I dont know....sometimes I am ever so jealous of those who are lucky enough to have babies and they dont even know how blessed they are...then there are other days were I am glad that I do not and I am glad that I can just pick up and go. I dunno...its late sleep deprevation is probably getting to me.....goodnight!

Thursday Thoughts.....

So this time last year I was living at Bobby's still...and to be honest I was miserable...we still had Jamie and Tom living with us and I was extremely irritated with them...Now....I am happy...though not thrilled about living with my parents once again...I have an amazing man who treats me like a princess....Its not always easy but at the end of the day I know he will be there the next day and won't leave me. I didnt know I could be this happy but Im glad things have worked out the way that they have :-)...ok...Im sleepy...going to do the dishes and lay down...

Wordless Wednesday

Things have been crazy busy and I finally got around to uploading my pictures from the trip to OC Dan and I took and from Rolling Thunder in DC.....Enjoy!

Ocean City!

Rolling Thunder

So I hope you enjoyed Ill update sometime soon but Im beat so its off to bed!