I keep....

putting in applications and I finally got an email back from one of them....this place is further than what I would want to travel so hopefully there is something closer to home with this company...and it is education related....hopefully when I call tomorrow it will all pan out! I really hope it does! I really need it too!

No matter....

...What I do...Ill be wrong. Its a lesson I learned before moving in with Bobby...and I am once again being reminded of it. I was pretty much told that I couldn't stay at Dan's parents house because my parents relationship is bad right now or suffering because of me.... ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I was guilted into doing what they wanted me to do once before....and look where it got them...if your relationship sucks...that's not my fault....that is on you and him....grow up, be an adult, and figure it out. Blaming your children for your own relationship issues is inexcussable and unbelievable.


...and people wonder why Im on Anti-depressants and need counseling....ARGH!

Excited!

So I found out that CCBC Essex is desperate for Adjuncts, and I'm going to call whoever I need to tomorrow in order to get a position teaching there....I need a job! Things have been rocky with my parents to the point my father threatened to kick me out of the house....among other things...so that has me stressed.

Dan is recovering well...he is getting around fairly decently only using his walker or wheel chair when we leave the house for long periods of time. He has also begun to drive. He has purchased and Tagged a new bike, and after he receives his disability later this week plans to tag and insure the car his father bought for him. He began out patient therapy today, and as for today things went well.

We have been discussing just having a small ceremony, or going to the court house. Yeah the dress and all that stuff is nice...but we can also save that same money and put a down payment on a house or to rent our own place. This ceremony or court house date may occur sooner rather than later due to the situation with my parents. I want to marry Dan anyway, regardless of the situation with my parents....so why not sooner?

Speaking of the court house, Dan received a court summons, regarding the accident, and it is at the end of September, which is rather soon, so I am very impressed with the city with that.

Still no sign of my fingerprinting card....even though I got the government papers saying nothing was found...so we shall see. School starts next week, so hopefully Ill get my card soon so I can mail everything in.

Lastly....A close up of the beautiful ring Dan gave me when he proposed! Love it and him!

Dan....

Proposed....and I said yes! Right now, our tentative date is sometime Summer 2011. This is for many reasons, 1) to save up money to pay for a wedding (which are expensive) and 2) so my sister can be present, and one of my bridesmaids at the wedding!

I decided against going to the Ukraine, I have many reasons for deciding not too, none of them involving the fact that Dan proposed the day after I applied to.

Any way Im beat....so I will post pics at another time!

True love is not measured in hugs and kisses, but in struggles and fears, and those who can work though those...they possess true love". Adam Murphy

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity". Gilda Radner, 1946-1989


"True love is your soul's recognition of its counterpoint in another". Owen Wilson in Wedding Crashers

"Let no one who loves be called altogether unhappy; even love unreturned has its rainbow." Eaton Stannard Barret

"All you need is already within you, only you must approach your self with reverence and love. Self-condemnation and self-distrust are grievous errors. Your constant flight from pain and search for pleasure is a sign of love you bear for your self, all I plead with you is this: make love of your self perfect. Deny yourself nothing -- glue your self infinity and eternity and discover that you do not need them; you are beyond". Nisargadatta Maharaj

"It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." Alfred, Lord Tennyson

"If you love the children of others, you will love your own even better". Anonymous

"Love is an emotion without limit and understanding."

"Love is the offspring of spiritual affinity and unless that affinity is created in a moment, it will not be created for years or even generations." Kahlil Gibran

"A man has only one escape from his old self to see a different self in the mirror of some woman's eyes". Clare Boothe Luce

"True love begins when nothing is looked for in return." Antoine De Saint-Exupery

"The world moves for love; it kneels before it in awe". Edward Walker, in The Village

"Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you." Vipin Sharma

"If their smile warms your heart, embrace eases you, and kiss distills all wrong done to man, then you know that you have found true love."

"To love and be loved is the greatest happiness of existence." Sydney Smith