You, you don't really wanna stay, no /You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

Katy Perry ~ Hot N Cold
You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah, you PMS like a bitch
I would know

And you always think
Always speak cryptically
I should know
That you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing
Now you're plain boring
I should know
That you're not gonna change

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bipolar
Stuck on a rollercoaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

'Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
You, but you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down, down, down, down...

White Horse Lyrics ~ Taylor Swift

Say your sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to

As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause I honestly believed in you

Holdin' on
The days drag on
Stupid girl,I should've known
I should've known

(Chorus)
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around

Maybe I was naive
Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance
My mistake I didn't know to be in love
You had to fight to have the upper hand

I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings,
Now I know

(Chorus)
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To come around

And there you are on your knees
Beggin' for forgivness
Beggin' for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm soo sorry.....

That I'm not your princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually
Treat me well
This is a big world
That was a small town
There in my rear view mirror dissapearin' now
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse
To catch me now.....

Whoa ohhh ohhh ohhh oh
Try and catch me now
Ohhh
It's too late.....

So I read the book He's Just Not That Into You and I noticed that over half the book Bobby never does any of it, when we first got back together he did some of it but he hasn't recently,and when I say recently I mean with in the last six months. I also talked with my friend Dan and he said that its not normal to not have sex for 4 months....especially if you were having it before. Im sure there are circumstances where it is normal but in our situation no way....especially since I have been trying to initiate it. I am suspicious of Dan's motives because I do think he likes me and I mean I like him as a friend. But the line is starting to become blured and I dont know if its because he is paying attention to me whereas Bobby is not or what. I mean what Dan says sounds good in theory but as unfair as it sounds I'd make him prove himself because of how crappy Bobby has been treating me and I think I have seen it the whole time I just didnt want to acknowledge it. I mean, yeah if I ask to borrow the car he lets me, if I ask about borrowing money he hands it over, he takes me to the light rail station, occasionally he will pick me up my favorite ice cream and I mean I consider these things to show that he cares about me and I am being told that these actions are done out of obligation because of he's not actually spending time with me, or paying attention to me, or asking me questions about my day. I told him I wasn't coming right home after class, and I was asleep when he came home and when he left this morning....when he came home from work he didnt ask about my day or about why I didnt come home right after class, he hasnt even thrown a fit over me riding on the motorcycle with Dan, and its not like he even knows Dan, I mean hell the moment I tell my father that Ive been riding on a motorcycle he's going to want to meet Dan...I know this...thats kind of why Ive been putting off telling my family lol. Just very confused....my head says I am crazy for staying and my heart says that I am crazy not to stay because he has helped me out so much to get through school.....I know things arent going to be easy in a relationship but Im not sure Im suppose to cry as much as I have. I dunno.....Texas will be awesome to go to and escape for a bit! Alrighty....Im gonna go...ealry day for classes tomorrow!