R.I.P. Shelli

So...My friend Mike's wife passed away last night.....the details are fuzzy with what happened....her father said that it looks like she choked, but its not known for sure....

Its not fair....She would have turned 26 today....her and Mike were trying to have a baby...and I have idiot friends saying that they think she committed sucide because of her Fibromyalgia....I didnt know Shelli very well but what I do know of her, is that she was not the type of person to be so selfish as to do such a thing....She wouldnt do that to Mike.

My heart breaks for him.....I cant imagine, loosing my bestfriend, my husband....Im actually angry that anyone would suggest she killed herself.....

Ive been struggling with it all day....like to the point, where my depression is acting up.....
I dunno....its been crazy....

Also I just had a panic attack over the fear my husband could possible not come home tonight like Shelli :-*(

18 wks and 2 days belly shot...

So here is the awaited Belly Picture!

18 wks and 2 days

So March 5th....we find out if it is a boy or a girl....I can not wait! :-D

18 wks....

I went for my ob appt. today.....baby's heart beat is strong at 152.....he or she was hiding on my left side....which to me made sense since Ive been feeling him or her moving around on that side....I gained 2 lbs, making it 198 lbs...so Im right on target....though once this baby is here I am doing everything I can to get the weight off! We go on March 5th for our level two sonogram and then we get to find out if we need pink or blue!!!! YAY! Ill be getting the hubby to take another picture of my ever growing belly soon. I try to make sure he takes my picture about every 2 wks that way I can see a difference....alright still lots to do....have friends coming over, and the apt. is a wreck!

Just a note....

To tell everyone...Ive gone 4 days without my meds....needless to say Im discovering I like me better on meds then off of meds.....almost got outta the car to beat up some chick who got mouthy with dan because she had a four wheel drive suv and was afraid to drive it in the snow....no that is not a typo SHE has four wheel drive and was a scardy cat to drive in a little snow bank....Dan somehow kept me in the car.....cause even though Im preggo I totally would have taken her on and laid her out....

About to be....

Snowed in again....and I have a ton to do around here...and all I wanna do is sleep....blah....

16 wks and 2 days

In other news I am 16 weeks and 3 days pregnant.....unbelievable right? I feel like a cow already.... I feel like this is what I would want to look like at 40 wks not 16.....oh well....today I actually felt bumps from the baby....I think either he or she is not thrilled that their Aunt Shannon is leaving the states for 13 months today....or really loved the trail mix grandpa sent over for mommy..... off to find some energy....

I feel like....

There is something wrong with me.....I went from having a very high sex drive....to being pregnant and not having a sex drive at all....and it sucks, I feel like a sucky wife... this isnt what Dan signed up for(my words not his....I promise!)...and I have absolutly no clue how to fix it....besides ride out the next few months and hope it returns after the baby is born.....

Getting.....

Snowed in....not happy about it! But Dan will get outta work early tonight....and has off tomorrow...we have a stocked kitchen....and a messy apartment....hopefully we can use this time to get organized for my sanity!!!! LOL

Wordless Wednesday....with some words lol

SO we are finally moved in and have internet!!!! Slowly getting settled and my family had been amazing and well as Dan's! So Dawnie posted a picture of her daughter which reminded me of her son when he was just a little guy! Both her kids have a thing for boobs! (sorry dawn! :-) )

He looks so surprised! LOL

KKK Im gonna go curl up in a chair watch some tv and wait for dan to come home!