Tuesday, April 28, 2009
There's somethin' 'bout the way the street looks when it's just rainedThere's a glow off the pavement, you walk me to the carAnd you know I wanna ask you to dance right thereIn the middle of the parking lot, yeahWe're drivin' down the road, I wonder if you knowI'm tryin' so hard not to get caught up nowBut you're just so cool, run your hands through your hairAbsent-mindedly makin' me want youAnd I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearlessSo baby drive slow 'til we run out of roadIn this one horse town, I wanna stay right hereIn this passenger seat, you put your eyes on meIn this moment, now capture it, remember it'Cause I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I'd danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearlessWell, you stood there with me in the doorwayMy hands shake, I'm not usually this wayBut you pull me in and I'm a little more braveIt's the first kiss, it's flawless, really somethin'It's fearless'Cause I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I'd danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearless'Cause I don't know how it gets better than thisYou take my hand and drag me headfirst, fearlessAnd I don't know why but with you I'd danceIn a storm in my best dress, fearless
Friday, April 24, 2009
Click on the link because for whatever reason blogger is not letting me embed a video from youtube!
I have loved this movie since I was little.....I would throw a temper tantrum in the video story if I could not find it or the video story did not have a copy of it. I always wanted to watch my "sleeping booty"!
Music Monday-All about Music
Tickle Tuesday-Funny stuff I find or going on in my life
Wordless Wednesday - You know what this is
Thursday Thoughts- A day to rant maybe??? haven't figured out what I will do this day
Friday Flicks- All about Movies
Weekends will be left to my discretion unless you have ideas for names....and of course Ill have my regularly syndicated blogging lol
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I was super excited to hold my godson for the first time!
Cutest little face!!!!
He is absolutely perfect and mommy, daddy, and baby are all well!
In other news, I have never been this happy in my life! This time last year there is no way I could have fathomed being this happy! Dan is wonderful! I love him and am very in love with him! My parents like him, even my little sister is starting to warm up to him. For easter he surprised me with my own Easter basket and in one of the eggs was an Opal necklace, that looks like an Easter Egg! I was very surprised! Sometimes, I feel like I am living a dream.....one I do not want to wake up from! Other times, I do not want to fall asleep out of fear I am in a dream and when I wake up it will all be gone. He gets me in a way no one else does....he makes me laugh, and smile, and get out of my comfort zone. I trust him completely....which is very scarey, but I have faith that he will do everything in his power not to break that trust. Ok I need to shower! Ill post more soon!!!!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Once again I want to apologize for how things ended between us. But we both knew it was coming to an end. Neither of us had been happy for a long while. I find it hard to believe that you say you may never find anyone who made you feel the way I did. In the very beginning you showed me how you felt, and let me know how happy I made you, but the last two years all you did was tell me how you did not care. What was I suppose to do? For 2 years, I tried and gave my all....for what? To be pushed away, to be told I was not good enough? For 3 years I tried to please you, tried to make you happy....all the while, making myself miserable. I gave up my family and their respect for YOU! For what? To be placed last in line on your list of priorities? To have to defend myself against YOUR friends, when they disrespected me? I tried for 4 years, to change, to become a better person not only for myself, but for you, for what? To be told I needed to try harder and that the progress I have made was not worth anything, nor measurable in your eyes?
How can you question if I ever loved you? If I did not love you would I have stayed after you kissed that girl while in CA, even after you tried to hide it from me? Would I have pushed my family away for you? Would I have put up living in a hellish living situation with roommates who pushed my buttons every chance they got, without having you backing me up and asking them to layoff? Would I have put up with you allowing your parents to smoke in "OUR" house during the holidays, even knowing I would end up sick within days? The answer to all of these questions is no. If I did not love you I would have left....I would not have put up with being treated as crappily as I allowed you to treat me. I should have left you the moment I found that text msg that you sent to that girl in CA say "Ive waited so long to kiss your lips". But no, instead of leaving, I made myself extremely ill over the fact that I may have done something to push you into kissing her, or that you may not love me the way that I loved you. I should have had the respect for myself to say, even though I love him I refuse to be treated this way.
I understand that financial you cared for me for 3 years, but I am sorry that was not enough. I needed emotional care, and understanding, something that I felt was lacking in our relationship. I felt whenever I tried to reach out to you, I was pushed away and deemed as being too needy. I now realize that I was not being too needy and that what I was asking for from you was not unreasonable. It was not unreasonable to ask for someone to spend a little bit of time connecting with me everyday...especially if I live with them. It is not unreasonable to ask to be treated with respect, and to expect your family to be respectful towards me. It was not unreasonable to expect to be included in decisions regarding events being held in "our" home, especially if this even includes allowing your parents to smoke in the house, even though I had repeatedly expressed that I would appreciate it if they were not allowed to smoke in the house, especially since I get sinus infections and/or ear infections whenever I am around cigerrate smoke. Plus I did not want my stuff smelling like that. It is one thing if we are exposed to it in thier home....but they should have been expected to respect me and my wishes and have refrained from smoking while over.
I will always care about you and love you. I want to thank you for throwing me out though. Now I have the opportunity to be in a respectful, loving, and emotional relationship which is what I am capable of having and deserve to have.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Thursday, April 2, 2009
First off this saterday will be 3 weeks since I was kicked out of Bobbys house. 3 weeks since Dan and I had our first offical date, and we've offically been together for 1 week and 3 days :-D!
I realized the other day how well I have handled everything....I mean alot happened the weekend I was kicked out! First I had scrambled to finish my portfolio with help :-). Then I was kicked out, had to wash my clothes to turn around and pack for my trip to Texas...i dunno....I dont know how I didnt flip out....I cried on the saterday I was kicked out and that was it.
Dan has been fantastic though...he's such a sweet guy! I have a hard time believing I deserve such a wonderful guy....I am doing my best to not even start taking him for granted. My heart dances when Im with him....and that is how it is suppose to be....not like a soft tap dance but like full out celebration dancing :-). He makes me feel like I am the most important person in the world to him...and I hope I make him feel the same way because he is to me :-)...
Ok...I still need to post some texas pics but Ill do that at a later time....class now!