Monday, May 3, 2010

Today

for whatever reason was a rough day....the further I get along in my pregnancy the harder my depression and anxiety hits....like to the point where I'm considering going on a medication safe for pregnancy but which may not necessarily fully work, just so I feel kind of like my self. I told Dan today, I would take the morning sickness and any other horrible ailments that could come with pregnancy ( and I have not had), if I could just feel like myself the rest of the time....and not feel down, and disconnected. An outsider would probably look at me and say what does she have to be depressed about she's had an easy pregnancy....but I am depressed and anxious...two things that occur with me when not pregnant....and the hormones just add to it and make it worse....but I am very grateful for my husband who does what he can to take care of me and to cheer me up when he can....

1 comment:

Dawn B said...

You are such a tough woman, Cassie.
I REALLY admire your strength. I can't even begin to imagine the struggle.. carrying a baby and trying to keep yourself mentally healthy. And let's face it, this pregnancy is hard for you. It's not an easy one. You're almost through and like you said, maybe you can try a low-dose medication..anything to make you feel even a tad bit more normal. I'll be thinking about ya...

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